Sunday, June 7, 2009
If i have 1 wish.
If i have one wish that could come true , that would to play for Manchester United. nuff' said.
Saturday, April 25, 2009
NOSTALGIC HELL OF A TIME.
last night was probably 1 of the best times this year , although it was so short.
after training , went pooling with the guys , and almost all of us were there. jing hui , leon , daxino , anson , jit siang and jason.
then after that went for supper and ate this whole big fabulous bowl of prawn mee. wah kao. and went drinking with jason and anson till 3am before taking a cab home. anson was pure drunk la.
last night talking cock session was fucking hell funny. it's really nostalgic . it reminds me of secondary 4 days , o level year already but we still went out so late to play so often. damn f-ing good man.
jason was damn lame la .trick us to think that wen li is comming to stayover with us wth. we thought we could have "fun" liao....heh heh. ok that's alittle pervertic.lol.
after training , went pooling with the guys , and almost all of us were there. jing hui , leon , daxino , anson , jit siang and jason.
then after that went for supper and ate this whole big fabulous bowl of prawn mee. wah kao. and went drinking with jason and anson till 3am before taking a cab home. anson was pure drunk la.
last night talking cock session was fucking hell funny. it's really nostalgic . it reminds me of secondary 4 days , o level year already but we still went out so late to play so often. damn f-ing good man.
jason was damn lame la .trick us to think that wen li is comming to stayover with us wth. we thought we could have "fun" liao....heh heh. ok that's alittle pervertic.lol.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Pop Princess
aaah. this weekend was totally out of control ! the long weekend was good man..seriously.
as more than a quarter of term 2 passes by , can slowly feel the heat from A levels already.
damn it i really have to start studying already if not i am a really shit dead man.i have been flunking almost all my test. argh.all rachel's fault , for fueling my ego by saying i am smart.lol.
Had bowling competition on saturday morning.argh , i was short of 11 pins to make it to the top 3 so that i can at least have a prize to go home. zzz. i scored 154 in the 1st round which put me at 2nd , but only 126 for the next. argh.then went for soccer match in the afternoon , where PANACHE WON 12-4. woohoo ! really whip them man. haha. these really booast a new era of soccer for our team , although i was practically off form la. was totally demoralised for both my bowling and soccer performance that day. but nvm, i am happy for our team and that's all that matters.haha.
some girls are just totally living a life like a pop princess. it's like , they have fun the whole darn day , have a gazillion guys chasing them , and DUN HAVE TO STUDY. although i am a guy , lol , i am so jealous la. when are they gonna notice the honey bees?lol.
oh well . anyway , i am so totally gonna start studying already man . Ventures is over , Tuesday time table is gonna shifted to be earlier release . soccer is gonna take a shift to be earlier. i would have more time. finally ,i really need the free time after such a long and busy period.gotta start gotta start gotta start studying !
jason , i really have withdrawal sypmtoms la.
as more than a quarter of term 2 passes by , can slowly feel the heat from A levels already.
damn it i really have to start studying already if not i am a really shit dead man.i have been flunking almost all my test. argh.all rachel's fault , for fueling my ego by saying i am smart.lol.
Had bowling competition on saturday morning.argh , i was short of 11 pins to make it to the top 3 so that i can at least have a prize to go home. zzz. i scored 154 in the 1st round which put me at 2nd , but only 126 for the next. argh.then went for soccer match in the afternoon , where PANACHE WON 12-4. woohoo ! really whip them man. haha. these really booast a new era of soccer for our team , although i was practically off form la. was totally demoralised for both my bowling and soccer performance that day. but nvm, i am happy for our team and that's all that matters.haha.
some girls are just totally living a life like a pop princess. it's like , they have fun the whole darn day , have a gazillion guys chasing them , and DUN HAVE TO STUDY. although i am a guy , lol , i am so jealous la. when are they gonna notice the honey bees?lol.
oh well . anyway , i am so totally gonna start studying already man . Ventures is over , Tuesday time table is gonna shifted to be earlier release . soccer is gonna take a shift to be earlier. i would have more time. finally ,i really need the free time after such a long and busy period.gotta start gotta start gotta start studying !
jason , i really have withdrawal sypmtoms la.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Saturday night fever!
You know the song, if your happy and you know if.....blah blah blah.
i dunno why, but i feel like doing it now!it's so childish, i am already 18.lol.well gonna be 18 la.and i am suppose to act like a man.haha.
i haven't felt so free in such a long time already.haha.as in natural or something.kaooooo.
was talking to her on monday night.siao she's really a lazy fish la.haha.darn it.
FRIDAY LET'S GO CLUBBING!wohoo.i got a fever!. jason, you know who to call la huh...
i dunno why, but i feel like doing it now!it's so childish, i am already 18.lol.well gonna be 18 la.and i am suppose to act like a man.haha.
i haven't felt so free in such a long time already.haha.as in natural or something.kaooooo.
was talking to her on monday night.siao she's really a lazy fish la.haha.darn it.
FRIDAY LET'S GO CLUBBING!wohoo.i got a fever!. jason, you know who to call la huh...
Sunday, March 29, 2009
CHIPSTER GIRLS !
CHIPSTER GIRLS ! WOHOO !
haha. they are reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal hotttttttt!
anyway , wanna apologise to jia hui . was pretty harsh to her just now. sorry ! anyway , i dun mean some stuff that i said la. i was just bursting out.lol. i wasn't really angry , just maybe..erm feel like ranting? sorry anyway , i really feel guilty . =( Good luck with him !
now i know why they say ex couples can't be best friends after the relationship. it's so hard , well , for me la. i may be cool and calm with anything and everthing else , but when it comes to her , just feel like lashing out. lol. i would be cooler next time ! haha. i am really sorry. i didn't mean to say those nasty things. some of it isn't even what i think of you. or judge you. i just lash it all out.lol.
Samuel has gone back with crystal . this i found out only today. i thought , well , with my slightest hope , that we could still get back together. cuz even sam and crystal could get back together sia. so i thought it was possible. never know today is the day i found out there's no more for the both of us.but oh well , it looks like it's not meant to be. memories were so sweet . i will never forget the times by the beach with her...studying with her..kbox...our 1st vday where i sent her home and presented her with the lollipop bouquet...when we went to get our rings together...our anniversary...watching dvds in my house and playing frisbee!talking out time and whiling away.eating ice cream!staring at other people and chasing them around..lol.
there was particular incident i found cute. and that was outside the library that time when i walked out angrily and she........haha.nvm. her facial expression i can never forget at that time.
sometimes , this are just the stupid things lovers do which didnt seem stupid at that point of time. guess we were really in love at that time. haha. it was sweeet.
maybe who knows when she read this , she will wake up her idea and like me again ? O.o . i doubt so la though.
This would be the last time i actually talk about us anymore. i feel real foolish and dumb to still hold on to any form of hope with her . she dosen't have anymore feelins for me anymore , who am i to kid.not that i wanted to be with her anymore la , but just feel very erm....i dunno..not angry or sad.just disappointed.oh well.it's just not worth it , just not worth it at all ! waste time waste energy waste strength.
haha. they are reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal hotttttttt!
anyway , wanna apologise to jia hui . was pretty harsh to her just now. sorry ! anyway , i dun mean some stuff that i said la. i was just bursting out.lol. i wasn't really angry , just maybe..erm feel like ranting? sorry anyway , i really feel guilty . =( Good luck with him !
now i know why they say ex couples can't be best friends after the relationship. it's so hard , well , for me la. i may be cool and calm with anything and everthing else , but when it comes to her , just feel like lashing out. lol. i would be cooler next time ! haha. i am really sorry. i didn't mean to say those nasty things. some of it isn't even what i think of you. or judge you. i just lash it all out.lol.
Samuel has gone back with crystal . this i found out only today. i thought , well , with my slightest hope , that we could still get back together. cuz even sam and crystal could get back together sia. so i thought it was possible. never know today is the day i found out there's no more for the both of us.but oh well , it looks like it's not meant to be. memories were so sweet . i will never forget the times by the beach with her...studying with her..kbox...our 1st vday where i sent her home and presented her with the lollipop bouquet...when we went to get our rings together...our anniversary...watching dvds in my house and playing frisbee!talking out time and whiling away.eating ice cream!staring at other people and chasing them around..lol.
there was particular incident i found cute. and that was outside the library that time when i walked out angrily and she........haha.nvm. her facial expression i can never forget at that time.
sometimes , this are just the stupid things lovers do which didnt seem stupid at that point of time. guess we were really in love at that time. haha. it was sweeet.
maybe who knows when she read this , she will wake up her idea and like me again ? O.o . i doubt so la though.
This would be the last time i actually talk about us anymore. i feel real foolish and dumb to still hold on to any form of hope with her . she dosen't have anymore feelins for me anymore , who am i to kid.not that i wanted to be with her anymore la , but just feel very erm....i dunno..not angry or sad.just disappointed.oh well.it's just not worth it , just not worth it at all ! waste time waste energy waste strength.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
EARTH HOUR
earth hour was great and meaningful!haha.although we slacked.will upload the photos next time!
the chipster girls rock !
the chipster girls rock !
Thursday, March 26, 2009
EARTH HOUR
This year, Earth Hour has been transformed into the world’s first global election, between Earth and global warming.
For the first time in history, people of all ages, nationalities, race and background have the opportunity to use their light switch as their vote – Switching off your lights is a vote for Earth, or leaving them on is a vote for global warming. WWF are urging the world to VOTE EARTH and reach the target of 1 billion votes, which will be presented to world leaders at the Global Climate Change Conference in Copenhagen 2009.
This meeting will determine official government policies to take action against global warming, which will replace the Kyoto Protocol. It is the chance for the people of the world to make their voice heard.Earth Hour began in Sydney in 2007, when 2.2 million homes and businesses switched off their lights for one hour. In 2008 the message had grown into a global sustainability movement, with 50 million people switching off their lights. Global landmarks such as the Golden Gate Bridge in San Francisco, Rome’s Colosseum, the Sydney Opera House and the Coca Cola billboard in Times Square all stood in darkness.
In 2009, Earth Hour is being taken to the next level, with the goal of 1 billion people switching off their lights as part of a global vote. Unlike any election in history, it is not about what country you’re from, but instead, what planet you’re from. VOTE EARTH is a global call to action for every individual, every business, and every community. A call to stand up and take control over the future of our planet. Over 74 countries and territories have pledged their support to VOTE EARTH during Earth Hour 2009, and this number is growing everyday.
We all have a vote, and every single vote counts. Together we can take control of the future of our planet, for future generations.
VOTE EARTH by simply switching off your lights for one hour, and join the world for Earth Hour.
taken from http://earthhour.org
VIEW THIS VIDEOS ON EARTH HOUR !
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5orIC-tbcFw&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1CRs-7lRlPo&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mxu3MluKl8A&feature=related
NEW YORK NEW YORK
INTRODUCING THE 2000g , MEGA , MONSTEROUS , GIGANTIC , ENORMOUS,NEW YORK NEW YORK , YANKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE BURGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEER!
MY GOD. went to New York New York for dinner. so there was this challenge...called the New York New York Yankee burger Challenge. whoever who can finnish this monsterous burger , meant to serve FOUR people , by themself, can get it for FREE! it's original price is $32.
as you can see from the picture...it's...really f-ing big.it's the size of 4 big macs!
sooooooo...Jing hui and Anson...bloody asses...i didnt wanna eat it at 1st...but they kept challenging me and say i gay and pussy dun dare to try....so.....i tried.lol.
the waiter came up to me , and directed me to this "super , ultra cool, greatest table of all" as claimed by him. i sat in this special seat , waiting for the monster to come out of the kitchen.
out it came , and ponk! on my table. i stared at it. the hamburger was...bigger than pamela anderson's buns! the plate was bigger than the plates people use to lor hei during Chinese New Year ! omfg. i was dumbfounded...it was... totally...out of control...it was really, really big....it was the 2nd thing in my life i have actually admitted that is big after my Monster C**K, as some of my AJ friends know.lol. i started out with the patty 1st. bit by bit , i chewed on the minced beef meat....after finnishing 4 people's worth of patty , i started on the buns. stread by stread , i wrestled with the bun.oooh the horror...the horror....
and, I FINNISHED THE 1.5KG BURGER IN A HOUR ! WOHOO VICTORY !
but wtf , there was a time limit man..ur suppose to finnish the burger and FRIES in an hour.shit. i wasnt full , but i didnt have enough time....so ended up have to pay for the $32.zzzz.
dang. my eating rate was too slow because...it was just plain disgusting to eat such an enormous portion of burger by myself.the taste just lingers in my mouth for a long time. yuck. and seriously , the burger is really...not very nice la.sian..... the beef patty taste like paper and the bread was....well if u wan to know how it feels go stuff urself with a loaf of gardenia bread at 1 goal....oh man...the sin of fast food..............................................
according to the manager , only 1 guy managed to gobble everything in 1 hour . the rest who tried didnt even finnish the burger.lol.so i am..kinnda 2nd in ranking!haha..
i know i have an enormous appetite...but after today...i must really watch my diet . i just ate a SUPER FATTENING , CHEESY , MEGA SINFUL BURGER FOR FOUR.WTH ! I ATE AS MUCH AS FOUR PEOPLE AND AFTER AN HOUR I STILL DIDNT FEEL FULL!
OH MAN. THE BURGER WAS MEANT FOR FOUR PEOPLE TO EAT LEH.WTF.
now i know why my friends say i got an enormous appetite. i am pretty frighten by myself too.lol.
all in all , was happy that i tried this out..although my parents werent happy in the end for my apparent waste of $. i didnt dare to tell them at 1st..but ended up feeling guilty and confessing.lol.
WAH SIAN. NOW I REALLY....DAMN SIAN SIA.I SEE BURGER...I SERIOUSLY DAMN F-ING TRAUMATISE...wah sian....i think i gonna abstain from handburgers for the next 4 years...
i just thought of this...i ate for today's dinner , tommorows' breakfirst , lunch and dinner! wah siao...i feel like camel.ohmg.i should totally do this often. maybe i can eat 2 days worth of meal next time. then save time dun need lunch.lol
MY GOD. went to New York New York for dinner. so there was this challenge...called the New York New York Yankee burger Challenge. whoever who can finnish this monsterous burger , meant to serve FOUR people , by themself, can get it for FREE! it's original price is $32.
as you can see from the picture...it's...really f-ing big.it's the size of 4 big macs!
sooooooo...Jing hui and Anson...bloody asses...i didnt wanna eat it at 1st...but they kept challenging me and say i gay and pussy dun dare to try....so.....i tried.lol.
the waiter came up to me , and directed me to this "super , ultra cool, greatest table of all" as claimed by him. i sat in this special seat , waiting for the monster to come out of the kitchen.
out it came , and ponk! on my table. i stared at it. the hamburger was...bigger than pamela anderson's buns! the plate was bigger than the plates people use to lor hei during Chinese New Year ! omfg. i was dumbfounded...it was... totally...out of control...it was really, really big....it was the 2nd thing in my life i have actually admitted that is big after my Monster C**K, as some of my AJ friends know.lol. i started out with the patty 1st. bit by bit , i chewed on the minced beef meat....after finnishing 4 people's worth of patty , i started on the buns. stread by stread , i wrestled with the bun.oooh the horror...the horror....
and, I FINNISHED THE 1.5KG BURGER IN A HOUR ! WOHOO VICTORY !
but wtf , there was a time limit man..ur suppose to finnish the burger and FRIES in an hour.shit. i wasnt full , but i didnt have enough time....so ended up have to pay for the $32.zzzz.
dang. my eating rate was too slow because...it was just plain disgusting to eat such an enormous portion of burger by myself.the taste just lingers in my mouth for a long time. yuck. and seriously , the burger is really...not very nice la.sian..... the beef patty taste like paper and the bread was....well if u wan to know how it feels go stuff urself with a loaf of gardenia bread at 1 goal....oh man...the sin of fast food..............................................
according to the manager , only 1 guy managed to gobble everything in 1 hour . the rest who tried didnt even finnish the burger.lol.so i am..kinnda 2nd in ranking!haha..
i know i have an enormous appetite...but after today...i must really watch my diet . i just ate a SUPER FATTENING , CHEESY , MEGA SINFUL BURGER FOR FOUR.WTH ! I ATE AS MUCH AS FOUR PEOPLE AND AFTER AN HOUR I STILL DIDNT FEEL FULL!
OH MAN. THE BURGER WAS MEANT FOR FOUR PEOPLE TO EAT LEH.WTF.
now i know why my friends say i got an enormous appetite. i am pretty frighten by myself too.lol.
all in all , was happy that i tried this out..although my parents werent happy in the end for my apparent waste of $. i didnt dare to tell them at 1st..but ended up feeling guilty and confessing.lol.
WAH SIAN. NOW I REALLY....DAMN SIAN SIA.I SEE BURGER...I SERIOUSLY DAMN F-ING TRAUMATISE...wah sian....i think i gonna abstain from handburgers for the next 4 years...
i just thought of this...i ate for today's dinner , tommorows' breakfirst , lunch and dinner! wah siao...i feel like camel.ohmg.i should totally do this often. maybe i can eat 2 days worth of meal next time. then save time dun need lunch.lol
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Reaction quiz
Was reading both sam and jh blog and found this interesting quiz.since i dun feel like studying , might as well do this.
Sooo.....i am suppose to type my 1st reaction to all this words given!
1. Beer: Heineken by Clarke Quay with my pals. the usual few , anson leon and daxino.
2. Food: Chilli Stingray
3. Relationships: Cruel. simply cruel. Makes a fool out of people at times. also , it's OCIP-unfriendly.lol.
4. Your CRUSH: 2 girls.
5. Power Rangers: I like the Green ranger last time. and the pink ranger is pretty hot too!
6. Life: is the way you wanna live it
7. The President: Who?
8. Yummy: Ba Chor Mee
9. Cars: ferrari
10. Movie: Watched frequently with her last time.
11. Halloween: hot witches
12. Sex: YES PLEASE.
13. Religion: Taoism
14. Hate: I don't live a life of hatred. even AJC is not in this column.
15. Fear: Losing family and friends.
16. Marriage: Must be the girl i am really sure i wanna live my life with. definitely must be hot.lol.
17. Blondes: Only exist in porn
18. Slippers: Just bought OP slippers.
19. Shoes: Adiddas predator
20. Asians: Yui,Sora Aoi, Maria Ozawa,Fiona Xie and all FHM girls !
21. Past time: Swimming
22. One night stand: OK. sure.
23. My cell Phone: takes nice pictures.
24. Smoke: Smokers
25. Fantasy: OH. THIS ONE IS ALITTLE OBSCENCE LA HUH.
26. College: worst time of my life
27. High school life: Best time of my life !
28. Pajamas: used to wear it.
29. Stars: Necklace i gave to her. and i love star gazing.
30. Alcohol: red wine by the pool side/ beach side. also accompanied with heneiken.
Sooo.....i am suppose to type my 1st reaction to all this words given!
1. Beer: Heineken by Clarke Quay with my pals. the usual few , anson leon and daxino.
2. Food: Chilli Stingray
3. Relationships: Cruel. simply cruel. Makes a fool out of people at times. also , it's OCIP-unfriendly.lol.
4. Your CRUSH: 2 girls.
5. Power Rangers: I like the Green ranger last time. and the pink ranger is pretty hot too!
6. Life: is the way you wanna live it
7. The President: Who?
8. Yummy: Ba Chor Mee
9. Cars: ferrari
10. Movie: Watched frequently with her last time.
11. Halloween: hot witches
12. Sex: YES PLEASE.
13. Religion: Taoism
14. Hate: I don't live a life of hatred. even AJC is not in this column.
15. Fear: Losing family and friends.
16. Marriage: Must be the girl i am really sure i wanna live my life with. definitely must be hot.lol.
17. Blondes: Only exist in porn
18. Slippers: Just bought OP slippers.
19. Shoes: Adiddas predator
20. Asians: Yui,Sora Aoi, Maria Ozawa,Fiona Xie and all FHM girls !
21. Past time: Swimming
22. One night stand: OK. sure.
23. My cell Phone: takes nice pictures.
24. Smoke: Smokers
25. Fantasy: OH. THIS ONE IS ALITTLE OBSCENCE LA HUH.
26. College: worst time of my life
27. High school life: Best time of my life !
28. Pajamas: used to wear it.
29. Stars: Necklace i gave to her. and i love star gazing.
30. Alcohol: red wine by the pool side/ beach side. also accompanied with heneiken.
Random
Went Pulua Ubin yesterday.took a picture with a cute , little chic! her name is wen xi!
haha. she was adorable man. i love kids. when they are not naughty.haha.
In my previous , previous post , saw an advertisement of this guy offering people advice on how to get their girlfriends back.tips included:
- don't act desperate
-don't act pityful to get her sympathy to win her back
-don't keep pestering her
-don't try to reason out with her using logic when you are about to break up, cause girls tend to follow their feelings ,and in that scenario logic is gonna bring you no where.
and many more. and he charges $100 ++ per hour of consultation !
seriously what the hell...he's pretty good la...if i had read that article earlier , it would have help. cause what he said is exactly what i did.which is dumb.zzz.
but hell no way man am i gonna pay that money to get the girl back man. might as well use the money and bring other girls out.more chances of having a girlfriend.haha.
maybe i can bring that cute little chic out. treat her to drink milk or buy her a new pacifier!lol.
SY FTW ! =)
haha. she was adorable man. i love kids. when they are not naughty.haha.
In my previous , previous post , saw an advertisement of this guy offering people advice on how to get their girlfriends back.tips included:
- don't act desperate
-don't act pityful to get her sympathy to win her back
-don't keep pestering her
-don't try to reason out with her using logic when you are about to break up, cause girls tend to follow their feelings ,and in that scenario logic is gonna bring you no where.
and many more. and he charges $100 ++ per hour of consultation !
seriously what the hell...he's pretty good la...if i had read that article earlier , it would have help. cause what he said is exactly what i did.which is dumb.zzz.
but hell no way man am i gonna pay that money to get the girl back man. might as well use the money and bring other girls out.more chances of having a girlfriend.haha.
maybe i can bring that cute little chic out. treat her to drink milk or buy her a new pacifier!lol.
SY FTW ! =)
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
How to chase back your ex girlfriend !
my friend and i was reading this internet advertisement on how to chase your ex-girlfriend back...
there was this section that included things you should not do:
-act desperate and try to win sympathy to get her back
-keep pestering her , in hopes of touching her so that she will come back to you
lol.sounds like someone i know. just that the someone wasn't acting la.lol.
there was this section that included things you should not do:
-act desperate and try to win sympathy to get her back
-keep pestering her , in hopes of touching her so that she will come back to you
lol.sounds like someone i know. just that the someone wasn't acting la.lol.
Monday, March 16, 2009
HOLIDAYS
holidays are here ! whee ! 1 week of no school !
i totally deserve this break la.it's a good time to just go slow...do the things i love...catch up alittle on work.
tommorow having training. cant wait to play soccer ! i dunno why but i have this sudden urge to play alot!
such a wet blanket man . supposed to go johor this commin saturday. end up organising a hike for the Scouts instead. argh. but nevertheless , hiking is still one of my favourite activities la.
it's been pretty gooooooooooooooooooood for me lately. things are going smooooth. i wonder why..
sometimes, i feel that being happy is all that matters. you just need to be happy , and somehow things go totally awesome for you.
have you guys ever felt when you were sad and angry, somehow you always trip and fall...your shoe laces get ties easily...you forget to bring your keys when you go out and get stuck outside the house door when u go home...you forget to bring your homework , your hair gets messy all the time , you feel tired and lethargic frequently , tend to fall sick , forget important dates and test, and even wear your underwear on the wrong side ! Girls stop looking at you ! LOL.
I wonder why .hmm.
I think being busy and doing the things i love takes my mind off all the dumb , lame relationship problems i encounter. When i think back about it ...wah lao i think it's reallly sibei lame and childish of me la.lol. i realised that within this 2-3 weeks , i actually mature and aged alot.lol.
i am also happy a certain somebody talked to me. it shows that at least she still values us being friends , and that's all i want . I think singlehood at this age is actually pretty good. in fact i never felt so good about being single before , except maybe after sy that period la.lol. maybe i should just be a monk forever and just not marry la. that way i can have "fun" as long as i live.lol.but i still have affection for her sia. hmm.wonder if she has. i doubt she does anymore la seriously.she's like kindda a flower..though i dunno why she is a flower la...attracting alot of male honey bees.lol.so many to choose from.lol. ok that's damn lame but yeah.but even if dun have , nvm le la.there's probably another guy meant for her or something.and another better girl for me!lol.oh well.love sucks eh ,anson and leon?
lost love usually results in lost of best friends too. it seems we have drifted and drifted...and well , it just seems weird to talk. actually ,more of like nothing to talk about. i now realise if there's a girl that's my best friend or something , i can't get her to be my girlfriend after that. to lose a best friend like this is just...plain shitty..i am very fearful of losing more best friends due to this.sometimes, i am just pretty pissed la dunno with her or with myself or with both of us , that we couldn't maintain the "best friend forever" status we both talked about in the event we broke up.lol.say what if we talk about this during our relationship , we have higher chances of maintaining it.lol.what bullshit.
maybe it's just an emotional barrier both of us have to overcome. lol.
Sometimes, i just think being single is good...i can chase my dreams without being held back..i dun have to feel like well...the feeling of attached la.but at times , i still hold on the tiny , slimest chance of us getting back at the end of the year, which is pretty unrealistic la.maybe because i am a SENTIMENTAL person.lol. always thinking about the happy past we lived in.lol.
darn. why can't she just say " yeah i no feeling liao" or "another guy la". that crushes all hope and i can stop hoping.lol.which is totally pointless and a waste of my time and energy.
but we all gotta moooove on. at times , i think i am pretty gay and foolish to hold on to this love.lol.well , if you can call it love in the 1st place la.lol.she probably dosen't even have the slightest thought about it anymore.or maybe who noes...got another guy liao!lol.
maybe this is just a tit-for-a-tat la. who ask me last time so........disregard other girls feelings too.keep fooling around.
after this whole episode , i really quite distrustful about girls regarding relationships already.lol. seeing that the friends around me also all 1 by 1 breaking up.shawn...jason...samuel..anson..leon...and the list just goes on la.lol. i talked like i kanna traumatised and scarred for life by this already.
anyhooo how, heck la. i ain't really bothered by it anymore , just rattering my thoughts la.haha.i feel so empowered now.my priorities now are my studies and to fulfil my ambition.if i have the time , i wanna save the envrionment too!
i kindda miss talking to certain people .oh man.i really hope i get more chances to talk to them man. how i wish i can get individual people to just sit by vivo and just chat with me , just like i got her on 15/11 at vivo to chat till the next morning. =]
And, i don't like the other her la ! 18 years old already guys and you guys still act like primary school kids pointing fingers at the "eee you like her" game. wtf man uber gay.
i totally deserve this break la.it's a good time to just go slow...do the things i love...catch up alittle on work.
tommorow having training. cant wait to play soccer ! i dunno why but i have this sudden urge to play alot!
such a wet blanket man . supposed to go johor this commin saturday. end up organising a hike for the Scouts instead. argh. but nevertheless , hiking is still one of my favourite activities la.
it's been pretty gooooooooooooooooooood for me lately. things are going smooooth. i wonder why..
sometimes, i feel that being happy is all that matters. you just need to be happy , and somehow things go totally awesome for you.
have you guys ever felt when you were sad and angry, somehow you always trip and fall...your shoe laces get ties easily...you forget to bring your keys when you go out and get stuck outside the house door when u go home...you forget to bring your homework , your hair gets messy all the time , you feel tired and lethargic frequently , tend to fall sick , forget important dates and test, and even wear your underwear on the wrong side ! Girls stop looking at you ! LOL.
I wonder why .hmm.
I think being busy and doing the things i love takes my mind off all the dumb , lame relationship problems i encounter. When i think back about it ...wah lao i think it's reallly sibei lame and childish of me la.lol. i realised that within this 2-3 weeks , i actually mature and aged alot.lol.
i am also happy a certain somebody talked to me. it shows that at least she still values us being friends , and that's all i want . I think singlehood at this age is actually pretty good. in fact i never felt so good about being single before , except maybe after sy that period la.lol. maybe i should just be a monk forever and just not marry la. that way i can have "fun" as long as i live.lol.but i still have affection for her sia. hmm.wonder if she has. i doubt she does anymore la seriously.she's like kindda a flower..though i dunno why she is a flower la...attracting alot of male honey bees.lol.so many to choose from.lol. ok that's damn lame but yeah.but even if dun have , nvm le la.there's probably another guy meant for her or something.and another better girl for me!lol.oh well.love sucks eh ,anson and leon?
lost love usually results in lost of best friends too. it seems we have drifted and drifted...and well , it just seems weird to talk. actually ,more of like nothing to talk about. i now realise if there's a girl that's my best friend or something , i can't get her to be my girlfriend after that. to lose a best friend like this is just...plain shitty..i am very fearful of losing more best friends due to this.sometimes, i am just pretty pissed la dunno with her or with myself or with both of us , that we couldn't maintain the "best friend forever" status we both talked about in the event we broke up.lol.say what if we talk about this during our relationship , we have higher chances of maintaining it.lol.what bullshit.
maybe it's just an emotional barrier both of us have to overcome. lol.
Sometimes, i just think being single is good...i can chase my dreams without being held back..i dun have to feel like well...the feeling of attached la.but at times , i still hold on the tiny , slimest chance of us getting back at the end of the year, which is pretty unrealistic la.maybe because i am a SENTIMENTAL person.lol. always thinking about the happy past we lived in.lol.
darn. why can't she just say " yeah i no feeling liao" or "another guy la". that crushes all hope and i can stop hoping.lol.which is totally pointless and a waste of my time and energy.
but we all gotta moooove on. at times , i think i am pretty gay and foolish to hold on to this love.lol.well , if you can call it love in the 1st place la.lol.she probably dosen't even have the slightest thought about it anymore.or maybe who noes...got another guy liao!lol.
maybe this is just a tit-for-a-tat la. who ask me last time so........disregard other girls feelings too.keep fooling around.
after this whole episode , i really quite distrustful about girls regarding relationships already.lol. seeing that the friends around me also all 1 by 1 breaking up.shawn...jason...samuel..anson..leon...and the list just goes on la.lol. i talked like i kanna traumatised and scarred for life by this already.
anyhooo how, heck la. i ain't really bothered by it anymore , just rattering my thoughts la.haha.i feel so empowered now.my priorities now are my studies and to fulfil my ambition.if i have the time , i wanna save the envrionment too!
i kindda miss talking to certain people .oh man.i really hope i get more chances to talk to them man. how i wish i can get individual people to just sit by vivo and just chat with me , just like i got her on 15/11 at vivo to chat till the next morning. =]
And, i don't like the other her la ! 18 years old already guys and you guys still act like primary school kids pointing fingers at the "eee you like her" game. wtf man uber gay.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
balance.
it's been really hectic lately. test test test , ventures..soccer..
been practicing my guitar! i can play alittle of thunder alrdy ! haha. actually i can play the whole song except 1 part alot of fancy pattern moves 1..that part i gonna master it soon man.
when you have ambitions , goals and confidence to attain them , it feels really really good man . =)
watched he's just not that into you today. not too bad la the show. lol. never let your friend bring in subway man..she would stink up the whole theatre with the onion smell!
been practicing my guitar! i can play alittle of thunder alrdy ! haha. actually i can play the whole song except 1 part alot of fancy pattern moves 1..that part i gonna master it soon man.
when you have ambitions , goals and confidence to attain them , it feels really really good man . =)
watched he's just not that into you today. not too bad la the show. lol. never let your friend bring in subway man..she would stink up the whole theatre with the onion smell!
Saturday, March 7, 2009
& LIFE'S AWESOME.
had a real good day yesterday. went for ventures in the morning , and then football training in the afternoon.
training was alittle crap , cause it rained like siao and we didn't get to play much afterwhich. but yesterday it was by far the best training , well actually post training chill out that i enjoyed. after training , daxino , leon anson and i went to bukit timah market to eat and chill till 11 pm.
the same 4 of us who just sat by Clarke Quay, Singapore river after prom night and stayed out the whole night drininking and talking cock till the next day..it was pure nostalgic.we really talked lots and lots of cock and...i it really makes me feel real good.it was quality time spent together alright.lol quite gay.
we talked and talked and i realised..everyone of us have grown up now. we have ambitions , confidence and more passions in our lives. we are all meant to be here to do big things.
secondary sch days were great. i can remember the countless times we stayed out till damn bloody late...staying overnight outside...talking lots and lots and lots of cock. the friendship, no brotherhood we forge can never be broken down by anything , anyone. even though we are different schools now pursuing different dreams , we are still as close as ever.
best friends are always there for you . when you have to face tough exams together , when you get into trouble with the teacher. when you all decide to pon phyisics lesson and play soccer as a class. when you have conflicts , problems with your other friends and family. when you needed their help to chase a girl or got dump by one. lol.
bro's b4 holes dudes.
i really gotta buckle up already.lol.
and i think i might..have a mini crush on someone i shldn't have. zzz. maybe not crush,more of just thankful and appreciative.
training was alittle crap , cause it rained like siao and we didn't get to play much afterwhich. but yesterday it was by far the best training , well actually post training chill out that i enjoyed. after training , daxino , leon anson and i went to bukit timah market to eat and chill till 11 pm.
the same 4 of us who just sat by Clarke Quay, Singapore river after prom night and stayed out the whole night drininking and talking cock till the next day..it was pure nostalgic.we really talked lots and lots of cock and...i it really makes me feel real good.it was quality time spent together alright.lol quite gay.
we talked and talked and i realised..everyone of us have grown up now. we have ambitions , confidence and more passions in our lives. we are all meant to be here to do big things.
secondary sch days were great. i can remember the countless times we stayed out till damn bloody late...staying overnight outside...talking lots and lots and lots of cock. the friendship, no brotherhood we forge can never be broken down by anything , anyone. even though we are different schools now pursuing different dreams , we are still as close as ever.
best friends are always there for you . when you have to face tough exams together , when you get into trouble with the teacher. when you all decide to pon phyisics lesson and play soccer as a class. when you have conflicts , problems with your other friends and family. when you needed their help to chase a girl or got dump by one. lol.
bro's b4 holes dudes.
i really gotta buckle up already.lol.
and i think i might..have a mini crush on someone i shldn't have. zzz. maybe not crush,more of just thankful and appreciative.
Friday, March 6, 2009
A level results release.
seeing many of my seniors do well in the A levels...wah siao.
really i need to bankai man. but right now , i really need some sleeeeeeep 1st.
ROAR !
FUCK A LEVEL TO HELL , I WILL DO WELL !
really i need to bankai man. but right now , i really need some sleeeeeeep 1st.
ROAR !
FUCK A LEVEL TO HELL , I WILL DO WELL !
Thursday, March 5, 2009
decisions.
life's filled with decisions. we all made right , and wrong decisions at times.
but one thing's for sure. i have learnt to be cooler to make more right than wrong decisions now.
and i really love music and soccer. they are like my girlfriends now.
girlfriends like this make me feel so good. they make me feel so so good when i engage with them.haha.
who want's to form a band with me ? LOVE EMBASSY DUDES! and pai seh , i chope liao . i am the lead singer. samuel , screw yourself dude . you can be our back up guitarist !
but one thing's for sure. i have learnt to be cooler to make more right than wrong decisions now.
and i really love music and soccer. they are like my girlfriends now.
girlfriends like this make me feel so good. they make me feel so so good when i engage with them.haha.
who want's to form a band with me ? LOVE EMBASSY DUDES! and pai seh , i chope liao . i am the lead singer. samuel , screw yourself dude . you can be our back up guitarist !
A little spark.
Sometimes , we just need alittle motivation.
and i can see my motivation comming along very soon already. aaaaargh. 1 more week till march holidays ! i really need that 1 week of rest man. not to mention , i look forward to trekking in johor!
school's such a bore. seriously , i really am waaaaaay cooooooool for school. i should just like drop out , start playing the guitar and play soccer everyday . i can be the 1st EPL player who's talented in music too. XD
jh's right. sometimes , at the age of 17 , 18 , 19 ... although we are kindda like...at the most crucial time of our education path...it's also the time we start to wonder...what have we been studying so many years for? for a piece of paper that somehows determine your life in the future?
you study for close to 20 years of your life, work for the next 20 years , just to prepare for the last 30 years then? you take 40 years to prepare for 30 years. that sucks.lol. in fact actually , your work for 30 years probably. look at Lee Kuan Yew . with all due respect, he's still working what. even politicians have to work for so long ! and he's already 80 plus.
we should totally just drop out , and pursue our dreams. a life without dreams is so meaningless.
oh well , that can't happen anytime soon. haha. just endure a few more months and muuuuuugg?
i really can't be restricted any longer already. once i graduate from prison , i will definitely unleash the fiiiiiiiery power in me man.lol. i will just...roooooooooooooooooar.
oh and i really wanna declare my love for Yui. she totally rocks my world. hahahaha.=P i really wanna play the guitar side by side with her. whee.
and i can see my motivation comming along very soon already. aaaaargh. 1 more week till march holidays ! i really need that 1 week of rest man. not to mention , i look forward to trekking in johor!
school's such a bore. seriously , i really am waaaaaay cooooooool for school. i should just like drop out , start playing the guitar and play soccer everyday . i can be the 1st EPL player who's talented in music too. XD
jh's right. sometimes , at the age of 17 , 18 , 19 ... although we are kindda like...at the most crucial time of our education path...it's also the time we start to wonder...what have we been studying so many years for? for a piece of paper that somehows determine your life in the future?
you study for close to 20 years of your life, work for the next 20 years , just to prepare for the last 30 years then? you take 40 years to prepare for 30 years. that sucks.lol. in fact actually , your work for 30 years probably. look at Lee Kuan Yew . with all due respect, he's still working what. even politicians have to work for so long ! and he's already 80 plus.
we should totally just drop out , and pursue our dreams. a life without dreams is so meaningless.
oh well , that can't happen anytime soon. haha. just endure a few more months and muuuuuugg?
i really can't be restricted any longer already. once i graduate from prison , i will definitely unleash the fiiiiiiiery power in me man.lol. i will just...roooooooooooooooooar.
oh and i really wanna declare my love for Yui. she totally rocks my world. hahahaha.=P i really wanna play the guitar side by side with her. whee.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Sum 41 With me Lyrics:
I don't want this moment, to ever end
Where everything's nothing, without you
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile
Cause it's true, I am nothing without you
Through it all, I've made my mistakes
I stumble and fall
But I mean these words
I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know
As I bleed my heart out to show, and I won't let go
Thoughts read are spoken, forever and now
Pieces of memories fall to the ground
I know what I did and how so, I won't let this go
Cause it's true, I am nothing without you
All the streets, where I walked alone
With nowhere to go
Have come to an end
I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I hold on to this moment you know
As I bleed my heart out to show, and I won't let go
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find
What you will find, what you will find
What you will find, what you will find
I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everything's nothing without you
I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I hold on to this moment you know
As I bleed my heart out to show, and I won't let go
I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I hold on to this moment you know
As I bleed my heart out to show, and I won't let go
I don't want this moment, to ever end
Where everything's nothing, without you
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile
Cause it's true, I am nothing without you
Through it all, I've made my mistakes
I stumble and fall
But I mean these words
I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know
As I bleed my heart out to show, and I won't let go
Thoughts read are spoken, forever and now
Pieces of memories fall to the ground
I know what I did and how so, I won't let this go
Cause it's true, I am nothing without you
All the streets, where I walked alone
With nowhere to go
Have come to an end
I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I hold on to this moment you know
As I bleed my heart out to show, and I won't let go
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find
What you will find, what you will find
What you will find, what you will find
I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everything's nothing without you
I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I hold on to this moment you know
As I bleed my heart out to show, and I won't let go
I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I hold on to this moment you know
As I bleed my heart out to show, and I won't let go
Lethargic build-up
phew. what a totally tiring weekend.haha. but it was fun alright!
friday..didn't go to school..afterwhich i went back to AJ to play the match against teachers. tried not to play to hard as there was a match the following day, but ended up further tightening my right thigh muscle. argh. went tution afterwhich , which....whoa....which someone was looking...real hotttttt.haha.then after that went with anson for supper and our weekly arcade shooting! survived alittle longer on virtual cop.lol.
saturday..woke up at like....6.20am to get ready for the soccer match ! damn f-ing tired, considering i talked to xinli over the phone till 2am the night before. with only 4 hours of sleep, daxino wanted to meet me earlier to discuss about the tactics and formation while having break1st. lol. captain and vice cap meeting la ar. played the match and...wah got thrashed 4-0. should have seriously won this match as they were considered a lousier team than the previous team we played which we drawed 3-3 with. right thigh muscles tightened even further more. not a good sign. was even subbed out during match. argh.went for bowling training with the ventures afterwhich .went home sleep , then vivo with family.
tommorow taking napfa test already. seriously dunno how to run with the condition of my leg. argh.
friday..didn't go to school..afterwhich i went back to AJ to play the match against teachers. tried not to play to hard as there was a match the following day, but ended up further tightening my right thigh muscle. argh. went tution afterwhich , which....whoa....which someone was looking...real hotttttt.haha.then after that went with anson for supper and our weekly arcade shooting! survived alittle longer on virtual cop.lol.
saturday..woke up at like....6.20am to get ready for the soccer match ! damn f-ing tired, considering i talked to xinli over the phone till 2am the night before. with only 4 hours of sleep, daxino wanted to meet me earlier to discuss about the tactics and formation while having break1st. lol. captain and vice cap meeting la ar. played the match and...wah got thrashed 4-0. should have seriously won this match as they were considered a lousier team than the previous team we played which we drawed 3-3 with. right thigh muscles tightened even further more. not a good sign. was even subbed out during match. argh.went for bowling training with the ventures afterwhich .went home sleep , then vivo with family.
tommorow taking napfa test already. seriously dunno how to run with the condition of my leg. argh.
Thunder is such a great sooooong . wheee.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Elightenment.
"Collide"
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah
I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide
I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide
Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
i just got enlighted.haha.
things can't be forced la.we'll see how it goes.i am pretty sure i still have a chance.i know her too well la. she probably thinks i dunno her , but puh-lease. i am like her mind reader or something.lol. i still can read her mind even after 2 months. sometimes i know what she's thinking but i just say some wrong stuff to further read more. lol. quite cunning of me la.haha.i hope well , if she reads this , and if i dun have a chance liao just tell me la. dun give me false hope or sumthing.
but for now , i am just gonna take a step back. let things happen slowly , and not rush anymore.we'll see how this goes. rushing is never good. the final product will suck big time. there might not even be a product.
samuel , i am on the same boat with you man. and i am just gonna employ the same techniques to steer my boat to success. phew. back to chasing the same girl , 3 years ago. just that this time round , i think it would be harder. =( but for some reasons , i have more confidence in myself. i am not gonna let some car driving swimming guy... sjab guy...or whatever la overtake my boat. maybe i will let them for now , cuz slow and steady , will win this race.
i emerged from this event , realising that even though in terms of scouts...and other girls...i use to have lots of confidence in everything i do.but this time round after emerging from the relationship , i realised i had quite alot of insecurities DURING the relationship. but now..i feel real good about myself again. i am successful , handsome ,powerful !
actually i am pretty confident i can get her back. u see , a level year...she would be busy mugging her hwa chong ass off. no time for other guys or merry making. unless...well..she finds a guy as her studying partner la.then i think that guy would post a fucking threat. hmm. but after all , when she was a innocent,helpless,easier-to-cheat secondary 3 girl , it took quite some time and great extent of effort for me to chase her. it definitely took more than just plain studying with her to actually capture her heart. what's more she's older now, gt higher standards liao...summore recently just emotionally scarred by this relationship...lol..and knowing her , it would take great pains and extent for someone to get her to actually trust him to be her boyfriend...i think guys, if you ever think of wanting her , think again la. Your gotta go through more than me !
haha.but maybe not la. cuz sometimes , it's not about effort , but it's about the feeeeeeeling.lol.
haha. i am such a whore to sound so confident and cocky of myself. but that's just me, and i really am filled to the brim with confidence when it comes to her.
and also,please. it will take more then acting as her cheuffuer, and by driving her around.i can own a car soon too =0 she just thinks ur cool cause of a car.lol. and mature. eat this, dude _|_
after reading this she must be thinking i am damn immature or something. lol.but i am totally not.
lol. i am really aggressive sia towards other guys.oh man.lol ok i shall stop.
she's right about alot of things...about needing more time for other things. i have always thought like that even during our relationship. but when we broke up , i really just...stagnate for a really long time..like 2 months? i just felt like being a loser , being a loner and just hang around. i ok le la but just at times will thinking about the whole issue. i musn't be affected about it anymore. this has gotta stop , and it will stop , right now.
i gotta put my priorities back on track. Studies would definitely come 1st .
i feel like i am in those love shows where this couple...they are really meant for each other..then suddenly something happened..then they break up...then lost contact for a year..but they still like each other till the 7 heavens of the earth...then after that 1 year later they bump into each other and feelings just come overflowing again. they go on a date..and poof! start kissing again and happy ending . the end.
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah
I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide
I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide
Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
i just got enlighted.haha.
things can't be forced la.we'll see how it goes.i am pretty sure i still have a chance.i know her too well la. she probably thinks i dunno her , but puh-lease. i am like her mind reader or something.lol. i still can read her mind even after 2 months. sometimes i know what she's thinking but i just say some wrong stuff to further read more. lol. quite cunning of me la.haha.i hope well , if she reads this , and if i dun have a chance liao just tell me la. dun give me false hope or sumthing.
but for now , i am just gonna take a step back. let things happen slowly , and not rush anymore.we'll see how this goes. rushing is never good. the final product will suck big time. there might not even be a product.
samuel , i am on the same boat with you man. and i am just gonna employ the same techniques to steer my boat to success. phew. back to chasing the same girl , 3 years ago. just that this time round , i think it would be harder. =( but for some reasons , i have more confidence in myself. i am not gonna let some car driving swimming guy... sjab guy...or whatever la overtake my boat. maybe i will let them for now , cuz slow and steady , will win this race.
i emerged from this event , realising that even though in terms of scouts...and other girls...i use to have lots of confidence in everything i do.but this time round after emerging from the relationship , i realised i had quite alot of insecurities DURING the relationship. but now..i feel real good about myself again. i am successful , handsome ,powerful !
actually i am pretty confident i can get her back. u see , a level year...she would be busy mugging her hwa chong ass off. no time for other guys or merry making. unless...well..she finds a guy as her studying partner la.then i think that guy would post a fucking threat. hmm. but after all , when she was a innocent,helpless,easier-to-cheat secondary 3 girl , it took quite some time and great extent of effort for me to chase her. it definitely took more than just plain studying with her to actually capture her heart. what's more she's older now, gt higher standards liao...summore recently just emotionally scarred by this relationship...lol..and knowing her , it would take great pains and extent for someone to get her to actually trust him to be her boyfriend...i think guys, if you ever think of wanting her , think again la. Your gotta go through more than me !
haha.but maybe not la. cuz sometimes , it's not about effort , but it's about the feeeeeeeling.lol.
haha. i am such a whore to sound so confident and cocky of myself. but that's just me, and i really am filled to the brim with confidence when it comes to her.
and also,please. it will take more then acting as her cheuffuer, and by driving her around.i can own a car soon too =0 she just thinks ur cool cause of a car.lol. and mature. eat this, dude _|_
after reading this she must be thinking i am damn immature or something. lol.but i am totally not.
lol. i am really aggressive sia towards other guys.oh man.lol ok i shall stop.
she's right about alot of things...about needing more time for other things. i have always thought like that even during our relationship. but when we broke up , i really just...stagnate for a really long time..like 2 months? i just felt like being a loser , being a loner and just hang around. i ok le la but just at times will thinking about the whole issue. i musn't be affected about it anymore. this has gotta stop , and it will stop , right now.
i gotta put my priorities back on track. Studies would definitely come 1st .
i feel like i am in those love shows where this couple...they are really meant for each other..then suddenly something happened..then they break up...then lost contact for a year..but they still like each other till the 7 heavens of the earth...then after that 1 year later they bump into each other and feelings just come overflowing again. they go on a date..and poof! start kissing again and happy ending . the end.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
happy Founder's Day!
happy founder's day to all Scouts and guides in the world !
still thinking of yesterday's hike man. oh god , patrick's such a good childcarer. while ying jie and i just stood 1 side all the time. haha. the kids were like bullying the both of us la.lol.
had Ventures cum Rovers BBQ last night. got it was a great , small gathering . i am sure the guys who turned up had a great time interacting with the rovers. we talked , talked and talked. army lifee seems to be filled with ghost stories la . haha. and melissa's a sick ass ! soggy biscuit !
after the BBQ i sent jia hui home cause it was damn late. went to find the guys again and wanted to drink, but all of us were tired la. so didn't and we went home.
i love gatherings like this. whee .
still thinking of yesterday's hike man. oh god , patrick's such a good childcarer. while ying jie and i just stood 1 side all the time. haha. the kids were like bullying the both of us la.lol.
had Ventures cum Rovers BBQ last night. got it was a great , small gathering . i am sure the guys who turned up had a great time interacting with the rovers. we talked , talked and talked. army lifee seems to be filled with ghost stories la . haha. and melissa's a sick ass ! soggy biscuit !
after the BBQ i sent jia hui home cause it was damn late. went to find the guys again and wanted to drink, but all of us were tired la. so didn't and we went home.
i love gatherings like this. whee .
Griffin cum West Coast Eagles Cub Scouts Hike
Today was a real fun and meaningful day !
We Griffin Ventures organised a cadet Scouts hike together with West Coast Eagles Scouts hike. well actually seriously speaking , much of the organisation work was done by teng yu and the girls la. haha. Griffin is just a unit made up with slackers.lol.
so ...met Anson at CCK today morning at around 7.10 like that .lol well , heng he called me to wake me up if not i GG la. then we made our way down to BB MRT and met the rest.
the hike was splitted up to 4 groups , and we just hiked around BB park lah. we were splitted to like 1 Griffin 1 West coast ventures. Teng yu and his scheming plan ar...
Well what can i say..man really it has been a long time since i did a MEANINGFUL CIP ( unlike the lame newspaper collecting with AJ) like this. during the hike , the cadet Scouts in my group were TOTALLY hyper active. there were 7 of them in our group ...and they were running around like mad all of the time...climbing round the playgrounds...running in all directions and totally trying to bully us the fascilitators.lol.
but nevertheless , it was meaningful and worthwhile when i saw their satisfied , tired faces at the end of the hike. Actually , 1 thing about this hike really reminds me of myself. After Mrs Margaret Anderson stated that she has been the Scouting arena for 43 years , i realised that i also quite "lao jiao" already. i have already been in the Scouting arena for 10 years already ! haha. that's a really long time actually . lol. more than half my life .
i remember the purpose of joining the Scouting life. last time in Pri School , i was already that type of like...outdoor person..i love nature..i love to go out in the great outdoors and camp..hike..and do adventurous stuff. i totally am in love with the smell of the morning dew , the adventurous spirit instiled in me , and the values and moral guidelines the Scouting life provided.
i can never forget the Scouting days i had in Secondary school , and the memories that came along with it. I really am in great gratitude for this establised youth organisation for what it has given me.
It was allowed me to be in the great outdoors...going for overseas camp..having cultural exchange with Scouts from all over the world! Thailand Jamboree was really the best camp i have ever went! activities such as overnight hikes, camps , far sea snookering , climbing up tegloh blangah hills at midnights , backwoods man cooking..pioneering..bowling com..soccer com..lan game com..campfires..NDP! and really really much much more la.the list is never ending.
their tiredness in their faces was apparent. but we all had fun and it was all worth it !
We Griffin Ventures organised a cadet Scouts hike together with West Coast Eagles Scouts hike. well actually seriously speaking , much of the organisation work was done by teng yu and the girls la. haha. Griffin is just a unit made up with slackers.lol.
so ...met Anson at CCK today morning at around 7.10 like that .lol well , heng he called me to wake me up if not i GG la. then we made our way down to BB MRT and met the rest.
the hike was splitted up to 4 groups , and we just hiked around BB park lah. we were splitted to like 1 Griffin 1 West coast ventures. Teng yu and his scheming plan ar...
Well what can i say..man really it has been a long time since i did a MEANINGFUL CIP ( unlike the lame newspaper collecting with AJ) like this. during the hike , the cadet Scouts in my group were TOTALLY hyper active. there were 7 of them in our group ...and they were running around like mad all of the time...climbing round the playgrounds...running in all directions and totally trying to bully us the fascilitators.lol.
but nevertheless , it was meaningful and worthwhile when i saw their satisfied , tired faces at the end of the hike. Actually , 1 thing about this hike really reminds me of myself. After Mrs Margaret Anderson stated that she has been the Scouting arena for 43 years , i realised that i also quite "lao jiao" already. i have already been in the Scouting arena for 10 years already ! haha. that's a really long time actually . lol. more than half my life .
i remember the purpose of joining the Scouting life. last time in Pri School , i was already that type of like...outdoor person..i love nature..i love to go out in the great outdoors and camp..hike..and do adventurous stuff. i totally am in love with the smell of the morning dew , the adventurous spirit instiled in me , and the values and moral guidelines the Scouting life provided.
i can never forget the Scouting days i had in Secondary school , and the memories that came along with it. I really am in great gratitude for this establised youth organisation for what it has given me.
It was allowed me to be in the great outdoors...going for overseas camp..having cultural exchange with Scouts from all over the world! Thailand Jamboree was really the best camp i have ever went! activities such as overnight hikes, camps , far sea snookering , climbing up tegloh blangah hills at midnights , backwoods man cooking..pioneering..bowling com..soccer com..lan game com..campfires..NDP! and really really much much more la.the list is never ending.
their tiredness in their faces was apparent. but we all had fun and it was all worth it !
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Thunder
Today is a winding road it's taken me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today in the blink of an eye I'm holding on to something and I do not know why
I tried
(I tried)
I tried to read between the lines
(I tried to look in your eyes)
I want a simple explanation
(For what I'm feeling inside)
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out
CHORUS:
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder
Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know
Whoa
(Whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today I'm on my own
I can't move a muscle and I can't pick up the phone
I don't know
(I don't know, I don't know, I don't know)
And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside
Just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out
CHORUS:
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder
Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think I'll make it out
But you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain
Today is a winding road, it's taken me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa
CHORUS:
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your voice (this is getting colder)
Was the soundtrack of my summer (and the summer's over)
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain (well today's a winding road)
Oh baby bring (today I'm on my own)
On the pain
And listen to the thunder
Hi all , suddenly feel like blogging again. No wonder they say this year those born under the year of the goat won't be having good relationships.Love Casualties:Me , Sam , Shawn...Jason...
it's been quite sometime la. haha. actually i didn't shut down this blog , cause i couldn't let go of something.i only changed the URL without telling anyone...so all the previous post are still left intact la.
Oh well...what can i say...this few months have been a real emotional roller coaster ride for me.yes yes , many of you , my best friends know that i totally went bongkus. i really became...kuku..but i have grown from it..learn from it..and emerge from it stronger , and wiser.
well , today i had a seminar held by my school about BGR...and it...well..for the 1st time in my life..AJC actually organised something which was pretty useful for me...i left the auditiorium thinking alot....the speaker left me wondering: "what's love?"
This is the 1st time in my whole entire life i actually asked myself that. for many of you who knows me , in the past sec 1-2..i was like..a total bastard tackling on such issues...i had short flings...not really flings la..like always have connections with girls..it was only in sec 3 that i gave my heart away for the very 1st time. or did i?
there was this particular segment during the talk, talking abt EQ. it shows a chart......telling what kindda of people are there in the world. well , basically there was the self-awareness , and the social awareness type. it hit me at point of time it was like she, and i. she was the self-aware type...likes to solve problems by herself...more of the quiet type..and well...everything the speaker said about this type of person totally resembles her i swear. and there was the polar opposite ...the social aware type.....who choses to make feeling and problems known to everyone and everywhere.louder people. it was me alright..
so which type of person was the better type of person in a relationship? i used to think me , of course.
this was the very mindset which destroyed my relationship with her , even after we broke up. if i had realised this alittle earlier , who knows we might have a higher chance of being "salvaged"
I used to think that all things between a couple should be trashed out..problems should be solvesd...solutions should be forced out... but however i realised that..it dosen't work this way...by doing so , i have neglected all types of human sensitivities around me...not everyone can be that open...
so , is it best to be the Mr Sensitive , the Self awareness type?
The speaker however , pointed out that a balance is needed....the 2 types of people should learn from each other.
Being selfaware is good..the type of people who knows themselves better than anyone else.they analyse,solve and manage problems on their own very well.
but sometimes , 2 heads are better than 1 . problems must surface for it to be solve , at some point of time.
so , i realised and felt that..well...maybe we have lots to learn from each other ..but it's too late now.zzz.
well i have found out alot of my own feelings through this seminar..as in..i started to actually think la. i asked myself " what's love, really?"
then well you know..all that thought that this is not true love..blah blah blah set in...
actually i realise my take about this whole entire issue is like the song Thunder. really. i am like this guy...at the crossroads of love or something..lol...not that i am emoing or wad la..just that i suddenly like...well...not like me anymore...not that girl-crazy-weiwen anymore.i still feel that there's something there , but just well..sometimes you just dunno what are you holding on to anymore.i start questioning myself if i still should continuing liking her..blah blah...the usual questions..or should i just give up.i have emerged stronger , to able to cope with such things and get on with life.
sometimes really , this tingling effect in us is so gao wei..i know i still do like this girl.
but i realise i should't think too much la. i am gonna lose my essence...the main vital trait about me..which is in this case also social-awareness...which is to follow my feelings for her and never doubt them. i am more of a "feeler" rather than a "thinker" at times.
ok la i know this post...might not make total sense..well , cause this is just a fraction of what i think la. damn hard to type all out.so abit random too.
the main thing is i must say.well...strong feelings are so hard to die off, even after quite some time.it's like , you dun see that person , dun talk to that person , dun go movies...kbox..sentosa anymore...but you still feel somehow..emotionally attached to that person, even IF that person dosen't feel so anymore.
thunder is such a great song. it has been ringing in my head this few days. her voice was really the soundtrack of my ...well...life la. i haven't hear her voice in like...forever already..but i swear i could just imagine the voice in my head...lol.i know it sounds crazy , but yeah i am not la. lol.
and dun let me get on with her eyes. it really glitters , with many many colours!
haha. ok i think i going psycho mode again.lol.i know i sound desparate la , i am not ok guys. i was pretty afraid of posting this post.later she thinks i crazy scare her off.lol
I am gonna get my thunder back.
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today in the blink of an eye I'm holding on to something and I do not know why
I tried
(I tried)
I tried to read between the lines
(I tried to look in your eyes)
I want a simple explanation
(For what I'm feeling inside)
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out
CHORUS:
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder
Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know
Whoa
(Whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today I'm on my own
I can't move a muscle and I can't pick up the phone
I don't know
(I don't know, I don't know, I don't know)
And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside
Just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out
CHORUS:
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder
Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think I'll make it out
But you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain
Today is a winding road, it's taken me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa
CHORUS:
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your voice (this is getting colder)
Was the soundtrack of my summer (and the summer's over)
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain (well today's a winding road)
Oh baby bring (today I'm on my own)
On the pain
And listen to the thunder
Hi all , suddenly feel like blogging again. No wonder they say this year those born under the year of the goat won't be having good relationships.Love Casualties:Me , Sam , Shawn...Jason...
it's been quite sometime la. haha. actually i didn't shut down this blog , cause i couldn't let go of something.i only changed the URL without telling anyone...so all the previous post are still left intact la.
Oh well...what can i say...this few months have been a real emotional roller coaster ride for me.yes yes , many of you , my best friends know that i totally went bongkus. i really became...kuku..but i have grown from it..learn from it..and emerge from it stronger , and wiser.
well , today i had a seminar held by my school about BGR...and it...well..for the 1st time in my life..AJC actually organised something which was pretty useful for me...i left the auditiorium thinking alot....the speaker left me wondering: "what's love?"
This is the 1st time in my whole entire life i actually asked myself that. for many of you who knows me , in the past sec 1-2..i was like..a total bastard tackling on such issues...i had short flings...not really flings la..like always have connections with girls..it was only in sec 3 that i gave my heart away for the very 1st time. or did i?
there was this particular segment during the talk, talking abt EQ. it shows a chart......telling what kindda of people are there in the world. well , basically there was the self-awareness , and the social awareness type. it hit me at point of time it was like she, and i. she was the self-aware type...likes to solve problems by herself...more of the quiet type..and well...everything the speaker said about this type of person totally resembles her i swear. and there was the polar opposite ...the social aware type.....who choses to make feeling and problems known to everyone and everywhere.louder people. it was me alright..
so which type of person was the better type of person in a relationship? i used to think me , of course.
this was the very mindset which destroyed my relationship with her , even after we broke up. if i had realised this alittle earlier , who knows we might have a higher chance of being "salvaged"
I used to think that all things between a couple should be trashed out..problems should be solvesd...solutions should be forced out... but however i realised that..it dosen't work this way...by doing so , i have neglected all types of human sensitivities around me...not everyone can be that open...
so , is it best to be the Mr Sensitive , the Self awareness type?
The speaker however , pointed out that a balance is needed....the 2 types of people should learn from each other.
Being selfaware is good..the type of people who knows themselves better than anyone else.they analyse,solve and manage problems on their own very well.
but sometimes , 2 heads are better than 1 . problems must surface for it to be solve , at some point of time.
so , i realised and felt that..well...maybe we have lots to learn from each other ..but it's too late now.zzz.
well i have found out alot of my own feelings through this seminar..as in..i started to actually think la. i asked myself " what's love, really?"
then well you know..all that thought that this is not true love..blah blah blah set in...
actually i realise my take about this whole entire issue is like the song Thunder. really. i am like this guy...at the crossroads of love or something..lol...not that i am emoing or wad la..just that i suddenly like...well...not like me anymore...not that girl-crazy-weiwen anymore.i still feel that there's something there , but just well..sometimes you just dunno what are you holding on to anymore.i start questioning myself if i still should continuing liking her..blah blah...the usual questions..or should i just give up.i have emerged stronger , to able to cope with such things and get on with life.
sometimes really , this tingling effect in us is so gao wei..i know i still do like this girl.
but i realise i should't think too much la. i am gonna lose my essence...the main vital trait about me..which is in this case also social-awareness...which is to follow my feelings for her and never doubt them. i am more of a "feeler" rather than a "thinker" at times.
ok la i know this post...might not make total sense..well , cause this is just a fraction of what i think la. damn hard to type all out.so abit random too.
the main thing is i must say.well...strong feelings are so hard to die off, even after quite some time.it's like , you dun see that person , dun talk to that person , dun go movies...kbox..sentosa anymore...but you still feel somehow..emotionally attached to that person, even IF that person dosen't feel so anymore.
thunder is such a great song. it has been ringing in my head this few days. her voice was really the soundtrack of my ...well...life la. i haven't hear her voice in like...forever already..but i swear i could just imagine the voice in my head...lol.i know it sounds crazy , but yeah i am not la. lol.
and dun let me get on with her eyes. it really glitters , with many many colours!
haha. ok i think i going psycho mode again.lol.i know i sound desparate la , i am not ok guys. i was pretty afraid of posting this post.later she thinks i crazy scare her off.lol
I am gonna get my thunder back.
Saturday, January 31, 2009
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