Thunder

Today is a winding road it's taken me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today in the blink of an eye I'm holding on to something and I do not know why
I tried
(I tried)

I tried to read between the lines
(I tried to look in your eyes)
I want a simple explanation
(For what I'm feeling inside)
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

CHORUS:
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know
Whoa
(Whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today I'm on my own
I can't move a muscle and I can't pick up the phone
I don't know
(I don't know, I don't know, I don't know)

And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside
Just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

CHORUS:
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think I'll make it out
But you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Today is a winding road, it's taken me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa

CHORUS:
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your voice (this is getting colder)
Was the soundtrack of my summer (and the summer's over)
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain (well today's a winding road)
Oh baby bring (today I'm on my own)
On the pain
And listen to the thunder




Hi all , suddenly feel like blogging again. No wonder they say this year those born under the year of the goat won't be having good relationships.Love Casualties:Me , Sam , Shawn...Jason...

it's been quite sometime la. haha. actually i didn't shut down this blog , cause i couldn't let go of something.i only changed the URL without telling anyone...so all the previous post are still left intact la.

Oh well...what can i say...this few months have been a real emotional roller coaster ride for me.yes yes , many of you , my best friends know that i totally went bongkus. i really became...kuku..but i have grown from it..learn from it..and emerge from it stronger , and wiser.

well , today i had a seminar held by my school about BGR...and it...well..for the 1st time in my life..AJC actually organised something which was pretty useful for me...i left the auditiorium thinking alot....the speaker left me wondering: "what's love?"

This is the 1st time in my whole entire life i actually asked myself that. for many of you who knows me , in the past sec 1-2..i was like..a total bastard tackling on such issues...i had short flings...not really flings la..like always have connections with girls..it was only in sec 3 that i gave my heart away for the very 1st time. or did i?

there was this particular segment during the talk, talking abt EQ. it shows a chart......telling what kindda of people are there in the world. well , basically there was the self-awareness , and the social awareness type. it hit me at point of time it was like she, and i. she was the self-aware type...likes to solve problems by herself...more of the quiet type..and well...everything the speaker said about this type of person totally resembles her i swear. and there was the polar opposite ...the social aware type.....who choses to make feeling and problems known to everyone and everywhere.louder people. it was me alright..

so which type of person was the better type of person in a relationship? i used to think me , of course.

this was the very mindset which destroyed my relationship with her , even after we broke up. if i had realised this alittle earlier , who knows we might have a higher chance of being "salvaged"

I used to think that all things between a couple should be trashed out..problems should be solvesd...solutions should be forced out... but however i realised that..it dosen't work this way...by doing so , i have neglected all types of human sensitivities around me...not everyone can be that open...

so , is it best to be the Mr Sensitive , the Self awareness type?

The speaker however , pointed out that a balance is needed....the 2 types of people should learn from each other.

Being selfaware is good..the type of people who knows themselves better than anyone else.they analyse,solve and manage problems on their own very well.

but sometimes , 2 heads are better than 1 . problems must surface for it to be solve , at some point of time.

so , i realised and felt that..well...maybe we have lots to learn from each other ..but it's too late now.zzz.






well i have found out alot of my own feelings through this seminar..as in..i started to actually think la. i asked myself " what's love, really?"

then well you know..all that thought that this is not true love..blah blah blah set in...

actually i realise my take about this whole entire issue is like the song Thunder. really. i am like this guy...at the crossroads of love or something..lol...not that i am emoing or wad la..just that i suddenly like...well...not like me anymore...not that girl-crazy-weiwen anymore.i still feel that there's something there , but just well..sometimes you just dunno what are you holding on to anymore.i start questioning myself if i still should continuing liking her..blah blah...the usual questions..or should i just give up.i have emerged stronger , to able to cope with such things and get on with life.

sometimes really , this tingling effect in us is so gao wei..i know i still do like this girl.

but i realise i should't think too much la. i am gonna lose my essence...the main vital trait about me..which is in this case also social-awareness...which is to follow my feelings for her and never doubt them. i am more of a "feeler" rather than a "thinker" at times.

ok la i know this post...might not make total sense..well , cause this is just a fraction of what i think la. damn hard to type all out.so abit random too.

the main thing is i must say.well...strong feelings are so hard to die off, even after quite some time.it's like , you dun see that person , dun talk to that person , dun go movies...kbox..sentosa anymore...but you still feel somehow..emotionally attached to that person, even IF that person dosen't feel so anymore.

thunder is such a great song. it has been ringing in my head this few days. her voice was really the soundtrack of my ...well...life la. i haven't hear her voice in like...forever already..but i swear i could just imagine the voice in my head...lol.i know it sounds crazy , but yeah i am not la. lol.

and dun let me get on with her eyes. it really glitters , with many many colours!

haha. ok i think i going psycho mode again.lol.i know i sound desparate la , i am not ok guys. i was pretty afraid of posting this post.later she thinks i crazy scare her off.lol


I am gonna get my thunder back.