Elightenment.

"Collide"

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide














i just got enlighted.haha.

things can't be forced la.we'll see how it goes.i am pretty sure i still have a chance.i know her too well la. she probably thinks i dunno her , but puh-lease. i am like her mind reader or something.lol. i still can read her mind even after 2 months. sometimes i know what she's thinking but i just say some wrong stuff to further read more. lol. quite cunning of me la.haha.i hope well , if she reads this , and if i dun have a chance liao just tell me la. dun give me false hope or sumthing.

but for now , i am just gonna take a step back. let things happen slowly , and not rush anymore.we'll see how this goes. rushing is never good. the final product will suck big time. there might not even be a product.

samuel , i am on the same boat with you man. and i am just gonna employ the same techniques to steer my boat to success. phew. back to chasing the same girl , 3 years ago. just that this time round , i think it would be harder. =( but for some reasons , i have more confidence in myself. i am not gonna let some car driving swimming guy... sjab guy...or whatever la overtake my boat. maybe i will let them for now , cuz slow and steady , will win this race.


i emerged from this event , realising that even though in terms of scouts...and other girls...i use to have lots of confidence in everything i do.but this time round after emerging from the relationship , i realised i had quite alot of insecurities DURING the relationship. but now..i feel real good about myself again. i am successful , handsome ,powerful !

actually i am pretty confident i can get her back. u see , a level year...she would be busy mugging her hwa chong ass off. no time for other guys or merry making. unless...well..she finds a guy as her studying partner la.then i think that guy would post a fucking threat. hmm. but after all , when she was a innocent,helpless,easier-to-cheat secondary 3 girl , it took quite some time and great extent of effort for me to chase her. it definitely took more than just plain studying with her to actually capture her heart. what's more she's older now, gt higher standards liao...summore recently just emotionally scarred by this relationship...lol..and knowing her , it would take great pains and extent for someone to get her to actually trust him to be her boyfriend...i think guys, if you ever think of wanting her , think again la. Your gotta go through more than me !

haha.but maybe not la. cuz sometimes , it's not about effort , but it's about the feeeeeeeling.lol.

haha. i am such a whore to sound so confident and cocky of myself. but that's just me, and i really am filled to the brim with confidence when it comes to her.

and also,please. it will take more then acting as her cheuffuer, and by driving her around.i can own a car soon too =0 she just thinks ur cool cause of a car.lol. and mature. eat this, dude _|_

after reading this she must be thinking i am damn immature or something. lol.but i am totally not.

lol. i am really aggressive sia towards other guys.oh man.lol ok i shall stop.

she's right about alot of things...about needing more time for other things. i have always thought like that even during our relationship. but when we broke up , i really just...stagnate for a really long time..like 2 months? i just felt like being a loser , being a loner and just hang around. i ok le la but just at times will thinking about the whole issue. i musn't be affected about it anymore. this has gotta stop , and it will stop , right now.

i gotta put my priorities back on track. Studies would definitely come 1st .

i feel like i am in those love shows where this couple...they are really meant for each other..then suddenly something happened..then they break up...then lost contact for a year..but they still like each other till the 7 heavens of the earth...then after that 1 year later they bump into each other and feelings just come overflowing again. they go on a date..and poof! start kissing again and happy ending . the end.